So, continuing my last blog, my sister finally called. We spoke very briefly until I found out she was on the elliptical, doing her daily workout, at which point I suggested she call me back when she was done.
And, surprise, surprise, I hung up the phone and caught a seriously GREEN reflection as I passed by the mirror. You've got to be kidding me. I thought about how I might actually have to act out my responses of delight and encouragement, with absolutely no truth behind them.
What gives here? Why am I bothered by her telling me that she is on the elliptical? I am thinking it's because currently I am somewhat torqued at the top of my leg, making even walking a little challenging. It's probably going to be a cane day.
So, it's because I can't that I'm upset that she can. That brings to mind an ugly word.
SELFISH.
The exact opposite of what Jesus was/is. And here's where the rubber really hits the road. Am I going to say, enough of this, enough of ME, and more/ALL of You, please?
I sure am bound to try.
Cyn! Love your self-knowledge. But you may have also simply wished for your sister's undivided attention. You are trying so hard, to not receive that in return can be hard to soak in. Hope it's not a cane day - but if so, hope that somehow turns into a blessing.
ReplyDeleteLove you -Kathy